Well, it's 4:42 AM and I have yet to sleep. Don't think I could if I wanted to, to be honest. Yesterday was a hell of a day. All in one day I was told I was selfish, greedy, think only of sex, and am - pretty much - a bad mother. The selfish and greed run in with the whole sex thing. My husband comes to me wanting it and I give it up but when I go to him he makes flimsy excuses or just gets down right ticked. And of course yesterday having a day off finally and no baby - grandma took her - I had suggested as much. But he went on about how he had things to do and that's all I ever think about. -.- Right. And then of course while I napped he dragged my mom into the whole matter by calling her and talking to her. Told her that lately I'm not myself, depressed, and sleeping in. So she went on lecturing me about doing this and not doing that as a mother, spending most of the time pointing out my flaws. Hypocrite. Her motherhood experience was far from perfect. Yea, I should learn from her mistakes, but getting up in the morning and making sure my daughter is taken care of and then napping a little longer does not make me a bad mother!! Of course when I asked Joe about it he said he wanted some advice on how to "deal" with me. As if I am some out of control teenager. And he claimed that he had no idea my mom would call and lecture. Yea, of course not. He knows better than that.

My mother is the type that voices her opinion to whoever she wants, where she wants, when she wants, and doesn't give a crap about who is around to hear it. EVERYONE is made known of this very soon in meeting her. So anyone who does not realize this is just... yea. There is no one who can't, simple as that.

Anyway I continue to listen to music and watch videos on youtube. I am compiling a list of songs I like to download, something interesting to listen to when I am RPing or cleaning. I heard word I supposed to be getting some sort of mp3 player for christmas >.> so maybe I am doing it in hopes of that too. Heh.

The other night we took Cheyenne to see more lights, forgot our camera so we don't have pictures of that great place. I will have to get some next year. But I do have some from Rocky Ridge, which is basically a state park that gets decorated. People pay to come and see these vast, wonderful decorations and all the money goes towards a benefit of some sorts. Probably to the forest or something. Anywho, you can see the pictures if you want: HERE.

I'm done raving and ranting....